Soul Searching

To find what is lost

To rekindle embers dying

To remind oneself of one's calling

To seek one's purpose

To know where to go

when the tides come

and wash away

your house of sand

To look to the heavens

the stars, the moon

even the blinding sun

just to find answers

to satisfy the inquiries

of your spirit

To tirelessly ask Why?

and How?

as in How to make amends?

How to begin again?

To break the shell

that encloses your understanding

To allow yourself to feel

the pain of that shell breaking

To deny, to give in to anger

To bargain with God

with whoever

To allow yourself

the brief comfort of weeping

Then to finally accept,

 let things be

How it was and is now

To remember what was forgotten

To regain strength

from the worst of infirmities

To realize there is no other way

to relieve oneself of burden

but to simply

lay down the cross

fall on your knees

and return home.